Dear Samantha, 

Just to share some more tops and dresses here. They are all my moms and they are all lace lace lace...

Love,

J

Dear Samantha,

You wouldn't know how things changed in my life or my family since there's a little miracle appeared under the roof of my house. Something amazing, wonderful and the most beautiful thingie I have ever see in my life. 

Someone needs to tell the baby that, in this life of hers, she's gonna be rich. It is because her life will be full of loves, cares and blesses around her, never stop, never end.

I can never describe how sorry I am to not being there for her during all these time, when she first time knew how to eat foods other than milk, first time she learn how to sit properly.... How I wish I was there, all the time.

And she needs to know how to keep her beautiful smile all the time. Cause it just reminds me that it worth everything, everything we have ever had.

Her dad, my brother, silly dude decided not to give her first name so she can decide herself when she grown up. But I am afraid that I would like to INSIST the name that I gave her right before she came to this world: my Annabelle.

My dear Anna, welcome, welcome to your world, with full of loves and cherish... Muaksss!

Love Aunt,

J

Dear Samantha,

Let me ask you. When was the last time you said these three words to someone that you care: I Love you, Thank you and sorry?

Let me tell you what. I often do the first two, but not really for the last one.

Exam preparation is really stressing me out these days and they way for me to let myself feel more calm is to watch some series during my brunch time. It was introduced by V billion years ago. I remember that time when she told me about the series, I assumed it was stupid and time wasting drama like others. 

But you know, when people get really lonely, they tend to do stupid stuff, just like me, started to watch series that I always critised so much. But I end up telling myself that I am actually such smartie to start it, I enjoy it, not all but main part of it.

I admit that I always skip the drama part but there are some moments, the story is just so cruel yet true and real. Sometimes we are just being so blind by those superficial, selfish, cold and self-centred part of ourselves. 

And there is always some things in life eventually go to the wrong way. And then we feel like the world is ending, and then we feel like drowning. At that time, you started to stop and look around those people who were around us. 

Started to feel appreciate how people stay with you when you fail, feel sorry how you always ignore them when you are on the top, and forgot how you love them. 

Eventually, you learned and gain... by starting to say more I love you to those who cares you probably more than you cares them, saying thank you for possible person and things, also, learn how to swallow your pride and say sorry for those you owe them.. 

People who know me dead well always realise that I am too proud for saying sorry. Yes, I am too proud, but I am gonna put the S word in my dictionary from now on. At least this is what makes human being a human... sensible human.

... what about you?

Warmest and best regards.

Love

J

Dear Samantha,

Ohh~ every single time when I look at my pictures in my cell or camera, it always makes me laugh like a silly girl. 

Oh dear, i love my life... everyone and everything that forms part of my life.

I am so drunk now... not because of wine.... but the effect of happiness....

Love,

J

Dear Samantha, 

Happy Dong-zhi day, S.

 Shame, cause I don't even know how to translate 冬至 into English. Well, it's just all about the white little round sticky thingie, the mixture of flour and water. But it taste specially great with duck soup! But again, all kind of chinese food is always the best, ever!

So in this special day, while everyone managed to find their own way to celebrate, I am still the same, by myself. Surprisingly, I don't feel lonely, not at all.

I went to the citi centre to bought myself a huge bunch of flower with full of Christmas smells on it. 

After, head to the China town for few packs of instant noodles and got myself some chinese food for the celebration. Well, that's certainly not the end of it, not until I got another lace top and lace dress for my mom. I know, again. 

It was on sale and I love both of them so much. But such a shame that I couldn't find my own size so I decided to pass the perfect chance to my mom. I couldn't have the opportunity to have the pretty stuff but at least for the one that is so special and I love so much. Yea, and that's my mother.

So that's pretty much I've done, I am now having the great food in my own room accompanied with some great wine and TV series... Yet, I am cool and doing just fine... :) 

Love,

J

Dear Samantha,

Yes, pretty much all my friends have left UK and went back to their home. And so as Vanessa.

We went to our favourite Japanese restaurant to have lunch right before she left Birmingham. That was awesome by the way!

Here I am, the lonely lady in the house. Basically everyone in my flat has been either went back home or other cities, except me.

And blindingly obvious, I am not alone, cause I've got my new and dearest friend: FOOD! Yes, as you can see, these are the portion for A MEAL. It take some times, but I do finished it up. 

And come on, who can possibly forget about our lovers: Dessert?!

Went shopping alone during the weekend but what makes me look sad was that I've got nothing, but 2 MANGO blouse for my mom. 

Ohh, Samantha, doesn't it just amazing and fabulous to have such a daughter like me?~ Never doubt.

Opps, in case you are interested, just so you know that I am recently killing myself for doing revision since I'll have my exam right after new year.. I know... Exciting!

Love,

J